soooooo much going on

i have no idea where to even start. well...... kinda not sure what to do about something that i've been worrying about for a while. i know i'll have to do something at some point, but i'm kinda putting it off, cuz i don't know what to do. (ha, sorry, i know, i'm a very cryptic person. i should either come out and say what i mean, or not bother, cuz now you want to know what i mean, and i'm not saying, and now you're all frustrated........ hehe! =P) other than that....... this week has been insane! i had my violin on Tuesday instead of Monday like usual, so i left the house at 8:30 in the morning, after lesson went straight to work, then after work, i go outside, expecting to see my Dad sitting there waiting for me, and instead i see a friend from church whose kids take lessons from my Mom just pulling up. she tells me she's kidnapping me and to get in the car. i was like wha........ she says my Dad couldn't come get me and my Mom had met her at the door when she brought her kids for their lessons and asked if she could come get me. so she brought me home, i walk in and Mommy stops me and says she needs me to take her car and go get Daddy now. i was like what.... wait..... she says, oh she didn't tell you? no.......... Daddy got in an accident. wHaT???????? he's ok, he thinks, but the car is not. and she told me where he was, and i left to go get him. i was scared. she said he was ok, but i guess i didn't believe her at all. i turned my Christmas music up way loud as i drove to try and get my mind off it and cheer me up. i was expecting all kinds of flashing lights and stuff, even police officers keeping me from getting to him, just my overly dramatic mind i guess. but in actually, there was absolutely nothing there, Daddy was just standing out in the cold, by the road, all by himself. he had been there for an hour by the time i got there, he was freezing, and shaking, prolly at least partially from the shock still. but i still didn't get to go home, i had to stop by EO and pick up Nathan, which daddy would've done, but now i had to. (illegal!!!! hehe, i love breaking laws.........) then, i finally went home, but only to eat some supper and leave again! for a choir rehearsal, gosh this cantata is so cool! can't wait to perform it! you all, (well, those who can anyway) must come see/hear it! so that was Tuesday, now for yesterday. had work again, love work. ha, but oh my gosh! errrrrrrr! mean ol brat! hahahahahaha! well, someone knows how to tease me now, oh i was so *mad* at him! ha, did it so i'd be mad too. anyway....... stupid stalker........ came thru my line again....... waited for forever as usual, even when Naomi in front of me had an empty line, and called to him and said she could take him there, he just shakes his head and looks away. oh he makes me so uncomfortable! i'm really seriously getting scared of him! i was going to talk to Nancy, the head of the department, but she left, so i couldn't. i complained to a friend about how she left and i needed to talk with her, as i was getting ready to leave. he asks what i needed to see her for, told him i had a stupid stalker, who was starting to scare me, he says you can't fool around with something like that, and he calls Noah over, this great big guy, he's like the second in charge over the whole store, a big manager person, and he's really nice, but he can also be really scary i've heard. so i told him about the guy, and he was really nice, and said if he ever comes to my line again (ha! if, more like when) to call someone over and have them ring for me. problem is tho, it takes the supervisors soooo long to notice your light's blinking, they might not even be anywhere around, so it could very well be that the next time he comes, and i blink my light, i'd be done with him before someone came. and then, none of the other supervisors know about him, and i'd have to try and explain so they would help me. it's all so confusing and complicated. i just want a body guard to carry around with me...... wish i could take my big bro with me, he's such a hulky muscular figure, he'd scare him off! grr. seriously you guys, he does scare me! at first he seemed kinda nice, and it was just funny he happened to be in my line twice in one day, but now it's just really really disturbing and creepy, and i can't stand to see him! but i'm not working today, have a neurologist appointment to see what we can do, maybe change meds, so i got a friend to take my shift for me. and i don't have work the rest of this week. oh wow! just got next weeks schedule, only scheduled for two days, 10 hours total, that's kinda weird. well, i'm gonna go in today or tomorrow or sometime, and put in the book that i'm available, so anyone who needs someone to switch with can talk to me. oh yes!!! i get to be a service clerk for part of one of my shifts! awesome! anyway, i have done the very scary thing of sending in all my college apps......... and now am awaiting the auditions that will end my fate. terrified. ha, i have a competition coming this Sunday, been practicing so much for it, i might get to play my concerto with an orchestra, (just my hometown orch. no bigee, but still) but after practicing a while, i get so warm, have to remove some of the many layers i wear to try and keep my cold-blooded self warm, and my hand, my left hand, gets so warm, no, not warm, hot. it seriously radiates heat, you don't have to touch it to know it's hot, just hover above it and you will feel it. it gets sore, it's kinda tense right now, trying to relax it, but not really working. it's weird. ok, long enough, need to stop talking. such a bad habit..... i talk too much, i ramble, and it gets boring and annoying. i don't do it so much i guess when i'm actually taking with people, cuz i'm still rather self-conscious, altho i've really been getting better. ok, ok, shutting up now. can't believe you actually read all that.... or did you......? hahahaha!