shopping.........

so we went shopping today, spending Christmas money from relatives, actually, we didn't go all together like usual, Nathan and Geoff went together earlier, cuz they were gonna go see TSO, sooooo jealous! then Mom, Sarah, Hannah, and i went later, and then Sarah met up wid her bf and they went to see TSO!!!!! but anyway, we went to the cutest place ever! this Evergreen Walks place, kinda like an outdoor mall! so adorable! music playing outside as you walk down the street to each shop, i just loved it! and i had Coldstone Creamery icecream for the first time, that was fun! anyway, we started off looking for a dress for Sarah, for her Junior recital, and i started looking at dresses just for fun, but when we went to the Buckland mall, i ended up finding a dress that i fell n love with, and actually bought! (heehee, actually, then Sarah fell in love with it too, and got one of her own! =) ) so now i have my very first dress! well....... ok, so i've had dresses before, but not since i was like, 10...... this is my first real real dress, and it is absolutely gorgeous! thing is..... i won't get to wear it for a while....... *bummed* cuz, i don't have like banquets or proms or formals or any of that stuff...... so i haveta wait til i have a senior recital. bah. but it makes me excited nonetheless. i'm gonna have to get a picture taken at some point.... maybe.... and put it up...... maybe...... hehehe! still don't like pictures of me tho....... yahrrr, but it's so gorgeous! maybe i'll take a pic of just the dress, bwuahaha! heeeeeee, that would be sooo funny! i should do that! haaaaa! well anyway, i should go to bed. i'm getting a cold, and the past two mornings have woken up with almost no voice, and it's like i lost the upper octave and gained a lower one, so everytime i'd laugh, all that wold come out would be this funny squeak, so therefore, Nathan would try to make me laugh as much as possible, meh. and i have a monstrous headache right now, prolly from being in noisy malls all day...... and, well, and, ha, yeah, because i had another seizure..... and i seem to get headaches after them....... can't wait till next week, get to increase the dosage on the new meds, that should help. ok, going to bed now, no one's online.... no one wants to talk with me.... poo....... people just aren't ever online when i am..... at least not that often. saddening....

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!

CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"it's the most wonderful time of the year!" me been having fun, absolutely love Christmas time, it's just amazing, even tho we still have not gotten any snow.... it just doesn't seem like it's really Christmas without snow.... but then again, i hate the cold, and am sooooo amazingly happy it's staying in the high 40's and even the 50's! so we had relatives over Friday and that was fun, but it was also the first time i can remember having them over here, we always go to my grandparents house. then yesterday was work, and even tho it was absolutely insane there, i had a ton of fun. Nancy let me wear my hat!!! absolutely everyone loved it, ALL my customers talked to me about it, it was such fun. the thing is, we're not really supposed to say "Christmas" at work, no rule against it, just we not really supposed to, it's kinda understood that we're supposed to say something about happy holiday, cuz you don't know what the customer celebrates, and that was hard to get used to, but whenever a customer would make it a point to tell me Merry Christmas, it made me so happy and i'd respond very enthusiastically with a Merry Christmas to you too!

ok, so, the thing i was going to write about yesterday, but didn't get a chance to use the computer, it's not actually perfectly true now. i was on a roll, hadn't had a seizure since last Sat., but i felt a little weird at one point Fri., but that was all, but darn it, everything got messed up yesterday, ruined my nice long streak, and i had one. not as bad as usual, but still..... grr. i used to have several a week, so it was really really nice to go a week without.

well anyway, Merry Christmas you guys! eat lots an lots of food.... and of course way more chocolate than you ever need, cuz that's what you're supposed to do, everybody knows that ;D

this town's always gonna think i'm a little crazy/ somebody's always gonna try to label me insane/ funny how i always seem to be the one who's crazy/ i just wanna live, i don't wanna fit/ if that makes me crazy, then i am

yes!

ha! i am free! hahaha! finally got someone to take my shift for tomorrow. the problem is, we don't answer our phone, and it's really annoying. the phone rings allll day long, but people just don't like to leave messages, and i don't blame them! i don't either! alarm clocks, answer machines, and cameras = most evil things ever! but anyway, at least i got the shift filled, i guess my mom was expecting a call from someone else and actually picked up the phone, Monique had been calling me like all day. when i go in on saturday, i am totally going to bring in my wacky twisted santa hat and beg Nancy to let me wear it. she'd let me too, cuz she likes me. somehow, i've become like her favorite there, i really don't know how or why. she always smiles and says hi to me, always glad to see me, doesn't do that with many people. she let's me get away with things, like even when i'm supposed to be on register, she let's me turn off my light and run off to do a price check for someone, when really, a service clerk is supposed to do that and cashiers aren't allowed to leave their registers. and last nite, it was 1/4 of 7, when i was supposed to leave, and usually, i shut my light off 5 minutes before i'm supposed to leave, so i can finish the people in my line and clean my register. well anyway, 1/4 of, Nancy calls out to me to shut my light off, i glance at the clock on my register, stupid military time, will i never get used to it? almost shut my light off, but then call out to Nancy and say but i still have 15 minutes.... she says, i know, shut your light off, by the time you finish that order and clean up it will be 7. ha, yeah, it totally did not take me 15 minutes to finish and clean, more like 8..... so i went and bagged until my shift was done. thing is, she never tells anyone else to shut their lights off.... so why tell me.... it's kinda weird, but i'm not complaining..... it's just not a normal feeling for me. anyway, goodnite all, me is tired, and me is on a roll. just what it is i shall tell you.... on saturday, providing it keeps up. haha! take that! more elusive talk! i'm so bad, why do i always do that? this time tho, it's a good thing, not anything bad i don't want to say. (btw, the clock on this is never right...... and it keeps changing..... at least it seems that way..... no matter what time it says it is, it's really 10:00 right now, it's always behind.... but the amount by which it is varies.)

bah!

this is not good, me is scheduled for work tomorrow..... but we're having relatives over for Christmas.... and i can't get anyone to respond to me about taking the shift.... i have two maybes.... but they won't call me back or answer their phones!!!! grawr. not good. and it's not like i can just drive myself over to Big Y and talk to people there...... darn it. mom's giving lessons, so she can't drive me, Sarah's watching Superman Returns.... LOVE that movie!!! she hasn't seen it yet, so i can't ask her to take me. this is just not good. poo. but anyway.... had a fun day at work yesterday, as usual. i wore these jingle bell earrings and had sooo much fun with them! made many people laugh, and it was great. boo, can't focus. time to resort to lyrics.... hahaha!
never let nobody know me/ never let nobody dare/ never let somebody hold me/ long enough for me to care/.....
never let my guard down easy/ never let myself let go/ i never knew the reason why/ i never let my feelings show/.....
i never let nobody touch me/ never let nobody try/ i never let somebody move me/ deep enough to make me cry/....
i was strong and independent/ i never needed anyone/ i thought i had it all together/.....
sometimes i wanna run/ sometimes i feel just like a fool/.....

once again i just can't get it straight/ wondering if wandering is my fate/ but don't lose hope in me quite yet/ cause help must be on the way, any day/....

updating for the sake of updating

contrary to my nature, i don't really have anything to say right now. but i know, as soon as i find something to talk about, i'll get going and go forever, haha! so anyway... me is messed up right now, kinda. little confused about something, because i'm clueless, i really am. i just need help, meh. but i can't talk about that. i know i know, then why'd i even bring it up, ha, cuz i'm like that. and i've not been sleeping well..... and when i do, i have really weird dreams. ha, pretty similar dreams actually. i have a weird mind... but you all know that already! hehe! Ahhhhhhh! yess!!!!!!! finally found this overture i've been searching and searching for with no luck! it's a Rossini overture we're doing in NEMFA, on the music it says: Ouverture zur Oper „Die diebische Elster, and i could not find it anywhere! itunes didn't have anything that looked like that, nothing on the web had it except things in german that i can't understand anyway, and i couldn't find it translated in english anywhere, and then, wickipedia didn't even have it! i was going crazy!!!! i finally tried just individual words, and i found Elster, that is a Magpie! hahaha! so now i have found it, and bought it, and am listening to it right now, the Thieving Magpie Overture, and boy is it fun! i'm having trouble following along with my music and typing, poo. i'll have to follow along later and just listen right now. oh gosh i'm so tired, very glad my shift today is only four hours, i could not take a six hour one now. oh! i just found out that my boss is leaving in january, the one that started like in october, or maybe it was august. everyone hated her at first, she was called the witch behind her back, but i've grown to appreciate her more and more and i like her now, she really is nice and fun, you just have to get used to her. but anyway, she hates this store and doesn't want to work here anymore, and is leaving us. that's gonna make me sad.... but actually, when i think about it, i won't be working very much in jan. or feb. all my college visits will get in the way, darn it! i'll miss my Big Y!!!!!! AH, there is a headless..... armless... angel lying on this desk.... that was startling. aw, poor thing, it's broked..... haha, looks like the head was previously re-glued, and broke again. sad. it's one of the Willow Tree angels, if any of you know them, they're pretty interesting. absolutely no facial features at all, just this totally blank head, but it doesn't really look bad. anyway. haha, enough about the angel. oh my gosh, guess what we're having for Christmas dinner on friday when relatives come! we are having pizza! isn't that the craziest thing ever? i was like pizza?? for Christmas?? when my Grandma makes the most wonderful food, and we do a lot of cooking too, and we're having pizza??? at least on Christmas day we're having a turkey, which is good, cuz we did not have one for Thanksgiving, i was bummed about that. ok, anyway, i must go now, work to do.

ok, time to actually write about something

alright, so i promised i'd write about it, so here goes. most of you know now, maybe all of you, i really don't know exactly who all reads this, but i have epilepsy, had an operation 8 years ago to remove a brain tumor that was causing me to have seizures, and was kept on meds for a while after to make sure it was under control, see, they couldn't get all the tumor then, the way it was and with the technology they had. well anyway, couple years and i was able to stop taking the meds cuz there was no change and i was fine. that is, until a couple years ago, i started having seizures again for no apparent reason, and had to go back on meds. thing is, they only worked for a little while this time, and then they just weren't controlling the seizures, and i was having them still, even when we upped the meds a lot. so then, to the present, we switched insurances recently, and had to get a new neurosurgeon and neurologist. the neurosurgeon is the one who has been finding everything out and giving us all the good information, and the neurologist is just stupid, really. see, even i know that my body just isn't responding to the meds anymore, i've just been on them too long, the neurosurgeon even said that, but the neurologist, whose job it is to know these things and take care of them, just doesn't seem to get it. see right now, i'm taking a very high dose of medication, like really high, i take, well, i took 1000 mg everyday, and he was like that's a really high dose, we really don't want to go any higher to try and control it, if we go any higher, there'd be a high risk of side effects........ let's go higher! and now i'm taking 1200 mg a day. i'm just like, what the heck! you just said it would be bad, we don't want to go there, and then turned around and said to go higher, you really just don't know what you're doing, what i need to do is switch meds, seriously. well anyway, my neurosurgeon had my Mom bring in all my old films, from back right after my surgery. that's when we finally found everything out. see, my tumor is such a slow growing tumor that when you compare the latest film to the one 6 months before or even a year before, you can't see any change, but when compared to 8 years ago, yeah..... it's a grown a lot. i have to have another surgery now, but the good thing is that in 8 years, technology has advanced quite a bit, and now they'll be able to remove all of it so this won't happen again. there's like this computer machine thing that helps in some way... not sure how, it's called the Symphony tho, so that's cool. and then, because of the type of tumor, there's almost no way they can get all of it, just because it has so many tiny tiny "fingers" spreading out, which is why they couldn't get it all last time, but with the new machine thing they can get even up to 99%, and then do radiation to get the rest. they had talked about doing radiation last time too, but at that point, technology was such that they'd have to radiate the whole head, now they can isolate specific regions and radiate just there, so now they can def get all of it. which is a very good prospect for me. anyway, that's actually not going to happen for a while, there's just no time to fit it in right now, i have a bunch of auditions coming up, and the way they're set up, there's not enough time between them to have surgery and recover before auditioning, so i have to wait till after those, but then March, after auditions, i have a retreat and NEMFA, so it would have to be after that, and then April 1st, (Palm Sunday, and i'm not joking!) is our Easter cantata, which like the Christmas one we just did, will be an original work by Mr. Shaw, and will be the premier performance, so i really want to do that too. ha, but i just found out that he would like to have two performances, and i don't know when the other is, so really, i might have to wait even longer, and still be recovering during my birthday! since it's going to be so long until then, my Mom talked with the neurologist, and convinced him to get me on a different medication, so right now i am beginning the long process of weaning off one and gradually increasing the other. well........... enough of that. the cantata was sooo much fun yesterday! i love singing it, and we had such a huge audience! the church was absolutely packed, we even had people up in the choir loft! i just loved it, course it wasn't perfect, but i enjoyed it so much! hahaha, you know what i just found out today........ hahahahahahahaha! oh gosh, a week from today is Christmas...... and i seriously did not realize it was that soon! sad, i know, but really, i'm a pretty clueless person, i really am. ok, well, i have practicing to do. and then i'm gonna watch a chick flick, hehehe! (seriously, you gotta love a good chick flick, really, and yes, every guy should see at least one! and no, it is not an oxymoron =P)

new song!

heck yes!!!!! just listen to it guys! you could even scroll down and watch the vid, that choir is like, monstrous! this is now my all time favorite version of the Hallelujah Chorus, just sooooo incredibly fun! haha! so i'm having a good day so far. mom left the house at like, 7:45 and still is not back......... hehe, you know what that means HAHA! well, ok, so i have actually been working, but, yeah..... hehe, i also watched Batman Begins, love that movie! i just love all those superhero people, they're just amazing, Spiderman, Superman, Batman, Wolverine, all dem guys. MY SISTER IS COMING HOME TONITE!!!!! can. not. wait! but darn her, *pout*, she's going on a date wid her bf, so won't be home till really late..... i'm more important, gosh! haha, ok, not really...... and anyway, she'll be living with me, in my room, so i'll see her plenty. weekend's gonna be fun, dress rehearsal for the cantata tomorrow, we gonna have a pizza party afterward, funness! THEN, i gots the rest of the day to spend with my Sarah! and Sunday is the cantata, yesss! hope someone comes to that... other than all that...... so nemfa........ i didn't do so well with my audition... but it wasn't really all that bad, actually, and than my adjudicator was saying all these nice things about me, and she really liked it, so i was kinda hopeful, until i got my stuff in the mail the other day, and she marked me really really badly! i seriously only barely made it in! like, one point lower and i wouldn't be in it! at least i'm in, but i'm kinda mad at her. everyone in the world placed higher than me, and it's kinda depressing.... i mean, i know i did better than last year, i was 6th chair first, and i know i didn't deserve that then, my adjudicator was really nice and scored me higher than i deserved, but now i'm one of the last couple people....... grr. at least it's some good music, and we get to go to Boston. not like we get to see any of it, we'll be practicing. anyhow, just remembered! Eragon comes out in theatres tonite!!!! that's exciting! must go see that! have soo many friends that want to see it, should try to get a group together. but actually, that would be kinda hard to do, people are really busy this time of year. meh. well at least i can go with some family members, and maybe a couple others will be able to come too. long time ago, well... ok.... so maybe like a year ago, but hey, that can be a long time! me and a friend started planning how we would go together at midnite, opening nite, ha, not happening now. oh well. it's gonna be awesome! LOVE the books, can't wait for the third one, hope they did a good job with the movies. anyway, i'm really really hungry, and all my sentences are like really choppy for some reason.

let's write something...... but what.....

life is annoying......... it really is. not going to talk about something yet, cuz i don't think my sis knows, and don't want her to find out by reading this, rather tell her. so i'll be open about it later, like the weekend, or later. other than that, this family is falling apart. literally. things finally exploded yesterday........ Nathan's determined to leave the house, and things are extremely tense. mom starts yelling at the littlest things, and starts ranting about how we don't appreciate her, and all the things she does for us.... and boy, i had the most lovely car ride to work..... *cough cough* but see, then i forgot all about it while i was there, i always have fun there, but then i had to get in the car again to get home.... ha. sometimes wish i could just stay at work, like all day. it was actually pretty quiet today. sad, sorta. haha, i got ribbed by a couple people about how i eat so very healthy on break don't i..... hahaha, yeah.... like chocolate... and more chocolate.... i'm gonna buy some lettuce next time, i seriously will! good healthy yummy stuff..... not filling, but good and healthy, so there! oh, haha, when i went on my break, talked for a second with a friend, who was standing in front of the bathrooms, but that fact did not click until i came back from break and he was still standing there, and then i noticed toilet paper in is hand, and was like wait..... hahaha, he was waiting to clean the ladies room, but every time one came out, another would go in, hehe, and he was stuck waiting, but then this little old lady came out, he looks around, big smile, cuz no other girls headed that way, asks her if anyone else was in there, there wasn't, so he runs in to clean it before another female came. anyway.... can't wait for the cantata Sunday... dress rehearsal Saturday should be fun, and there's gonna be pizza afterward, that's always good. ok, enough trying to make my mind focus on anything.

interesting day

so, left the house at 9 this morning, and only came home in time to shower and leave again at 2:30, and then got in in time to leave again with my Mom for the store. i had a violin lesson this morning, and then i doctor appointment, which i do not really want to write about yet, don't want to think about it yet, because then i might break down. but i will have to soon, i promise i'll write about it as soon as i can. that took the longest of my day, then after i showered, i left for Emma's grandparent's house, where her grandma was having a little party for us, there was Emma, Leta, Carrie, and me, and it was amazing fun! i love them so much! such goooooood food! then when i came home, turned around and did some Christmas shopping, of which i still have a lot to do. anyway, this is really short, but i don't want to write more now.

audition.....

just had my NEMFA audition today..... scary. but really, actually it wasn't that bad. oh it was so exciting tho! i get to the school, and of course the second i walk in the door i'm feeling lost, that's just how i get when i enter a school. but anyway, my Dad stops and goes, Gail! i stop, and look to my right, and there is Mrs. Reynolds sitting at a table there!!!! i was so amazingly excited! she had started saying hi to my Dad when she saw me and says, oh you are getting a hug! tells me how cute i looked, asked how i was doing, all that. i told her how sad i was she wasn't coming back to camp next year...... man i've missed her! at least i'll prolly see her at NEMFA. (if i get in) my audition wasn't as good as it could have been, but it wasn't too bad either i guess, my adjudicator liked it anyway. that's what counts, lol. yeah, after me and my little sis were done and leaving, we stopped to talk with Mrs. Reynolds again, and she asked what i had played, and when i told her Wieniawski's 2nd concerto, she goes oh bless you child, it's pretty much one big cadenza from the moment you start playing! oh i always hated Wieniaw- oops, i mean..... hahaha, i love her! anyway..... kinda dreading, but also can't wait to find out how i did. so yeah, that was today. not really anything happened, did some major cleaning of my room, like actually washing the walls....... it was crazy..... and practiced for tomorrow nite....... still cannot believe i'm singing....... oh gosh, just remembered, i have soooo much Christmas shopping to do! it's not such a simple thing now, i was looking forward to just going any time i wanted to basically, but now i can't, have to wait until my Mom can drive me, meh. i really miss driving myself, just that freedom. but anyway. had a good orchestra concert Friday nite, and now i'm really really looking forward to next semester, great music coming!!! and more friends joining, yay! wow, just found out, tomorrow is gonna be insane, church in the morning, come home to eat, then leave for my Dad's concert, this Acapella group he's in, then we'll stop somewhere to eat, and go to church again for the Christmas program..... so once i'm up, it's pretty much non-stop. well, got more stuff to do before going to bed, so i must get off. will write more interesting stuff later.

labels

well, i was really really really really bored......... like seriously....... i've been on here for hours, nothing to do.... could go practice, should go practice, but haven't, and anyway, i just added labels to some of my more recent posts. i'll go thru the rest later and add more then. but anyway, don't know if they really matter or make a difference, but they're there all the same. haha, oh yeah, i also hid a bunch of posts back there, in case anyone ever goes back and wonders what happened to them. but yeah, anyway, 'ats all. i guess. meh, kinda confused a little about something right now, don't really know what's going on or what to do, and i hate being cryptic like this, and i know you guys don't like it, so i'll stop now.

wow!

yesterday was insane........... ok, so in a way, it started on Tuesday, see, i was scheduled to be a service clerk for the last part of my shift, and it was seriously cold, therefore, i decided to buy some gloves whilst on my break, in case i went out to do carriages. got a friend to help me find where the heck we sold gloves....... in a grocery store....... finally found them tho. middle of the frozen foods, if you wanted to know =P so anyway, i didn't actually go do carriages, cuz apparently, girls aren't allowed to after dark, good thing i guess, but i was disappointed. but anyway, i had put my coat in the bag with my gloves, stupid, and when it was time to leave, i pull my coat out and put it on as i walk out the door, get home, and realize my gloves are no longer in the bag....... musta pulled out with my coat...... and were still at Big Y. errrrr. i went in early today to go to the courtesy booth and see if they maybe had my gloves. they actually did! so i walk thru the store to go put them in my locker, which i had previously visited to deposit my violin and backpack in, and stop to talk with the friend who had helped me find the gloves the nite before. well. the stupid stalker was in the store, didn't see me, but i saw him looking for me down at the registers, and i hid behind my friend, and told him about the guy. he let me know when he was gone, and then said, see, there was a reason you forgot your gloves, so you wouldn't be on register when he came! but anyway, i was so happy that i had missed him, thought i was all set for the day........ except he came in again during my last hour....... rawr! i asked the guy bagging for me if he knew how to cashier, he didn't, so i called Nancy (my boss) over, and told her about him, she asked where he was right now, in the store? i glanced behind me and saw him in my line! he seriously comes in to grab like two things, that he prolly doesn't need, so he can go thru my line! so i told her he was in my line right then, guy on the end, blue coat, so she tells me to leave and she'll cashier for me. i went from my register, number 1, all the way down to number 10 to bag! after a while, Austin, the guy bagging on my lane, came and told me i could come back now. Nancy said that guy was not too happy, just took the money out of her hand just like that. said if he ever comes back, let her know. she starts to walk away, then turns and leans toward me and whispers, "I'll kick his but!" Austin told me that as i walked away, his eyes were following me. *shudder* creep! like ten minutes later, Jay comes in to get a muffin, and Austin tells him about it, Jay asks, where is he? is he here? where is he? i'll beat him up, where does he live? i'll go smash his car, graffiti his lawn! i was like Jay, do you really think i'm gonna ask him where he lives....... but he made me feel better, but then he and Austin started teasing me and picking on me....... boys...... i don't really mind, but i pretend to be mad.... except i don't think they believe me. poo. haha, i was trying to convince Jeff that i had a bazooka in the case, not a violin, and he totally does not believe me, he's like, what are ya gonna do, music me to death? i'm like oh come on! you don't know, i could really have a gun in here, and no one knows, they don't even question me! he says, you don't really seem the type. i'm like, how do you know??? i could really be the horrible, festering, wicked person, and no one knows, you believe my nice face too easily! grr, but then he starts "making fun" of me, being all bouncy and laughing and smiling and like, heeheehee, i have a gun, heeheehee, lookit, i'm gonna shoot you, heeheeheee.......... rawr.... brat....... lol, i have too much fun, really, i love that place so much! but yeah, it was crazy, and then i went to orchestra, dress rehearsal for concert on Friday...... concert that is keeping me from going to Youth Group...... again. meh. but it's gonna be fun, some good music, three concerto winners, pretty insane stuff! ahahaha! i'm listening to Bryan Adams right now, had one of his songs earlier, but have just decided i really like him! AH! he did the songs on Spirit i did not know that! i always liked the music for the movie! must buy soundtrack now. HA! oops, totally forgot, quite a while back now, i was gonna start being organized......... when i updated....... make things easier for people to read..... well, that hasn't happened. ah well, i need to go now, stuff to do. can't wait for Christmas! getting closer!!!!!

tired......

getting more sleep, which is good, but i'm still tired. so yesterday was this competition i do every year, this is like my 6th year doing it..... or something like that. i've never really like it..... the judges are very biased. but it's good i guess, good practice. anyway, this was my last year, and i guess my best year, just cuz there were a lot more people there i know. course the siblings who also competed, another friend who goes a lot, but this time, there were several people from Bach Academy, actually, two of them were from church, the other family i only know from B.A. they are sooo talented. i really don't mind being beaten by Sam, he's amazing, and i'm glad he gets to play with the orchestra and not me. so anyway...... we have a Christmas program being held at my church this Sunday nite, and......... i'm singing in it...... terrified........ haven't ever really sung in front of people before. then the next Sunday, oh gosh am i excited! next Sunday, the 17th, is the premiere performance of Mr. Shaw's Christmas Cantata!!!! so exciting!!!! man it's gonna be awesome! can't wait, it's really amazing. i'm going to invite sooo many people to it, i hope they come. ok, this is gonna have to be short, really have not been concentrating lately. one of the side effects of my meds is it makes me tired, and can affect my concentration. oho! like the new music! it gets annoying after a while, i'll have to change it again pretty soon.

pictures!

i just added two more pictures (finally!) to my picture blog! woot! of course tho, they're of the kitties......... i love them sooo much! they're absolutely adorable! but anyway, don't really have time for a long drawn out post like i usually do. lol. i'll just say i had sooo much fun being a service clerk today, 'twas awesome! a little hectic tho. left here at 1/4 after 6 in the morning for the barn, worked as fast as i could so i could rush home (well actually, my Dad was doing the driving, mrph) and i took a shower in record time and dashed off to Big Y to work! man i love doing carriages, even tho it's hard work, it's very satisfactory, and i'm outside in the fresh air, away from all the noisy customers. oho! i'm getting rumors of snow coming soon! i'm having mixed feelings about that. of course, i love snow, but still......... it has to be cold for there to be snow...... and i hate the cold. it's been like 60 all week now! love love love it! don't want it to act like it's really December, want to keep the warmth forever and ever. poo. anyway, one really good thing about being service clerk today, my stupid stalker was leaving the building when he saw me start bagging for register one, so he came back in to go get a few items, grr, and of course, came to that register. but, haha! i was service clerk, so i left and went to another register to bag, so there! ha! stupid guy, really really seriously needs to leave me alone! darn it, wanted to find the music video for one of my favorite Christmas songs ever, but there isn't one! meh. man, i really wanted to put that on here! it's "I want a Hippopotamus for Christmas" best song ever! it was totally my favorite last year, and even tho my parents had just got me my new violin, they got me this crazy CD that had that song on it, and they got a hippopotamus! ok ok, fine, not a real one...... AH! grr, i said i was gonna make this short, so i must stop babbling now! byeeee!

wow did things get busy!

so...... wasn't supposed to work today, but got a call yesterday from one of my supervisors, said a girl scheduled for today had been in a car accident, could i come work her shift for her? 6 hour shift....... love those........ ha, oh, and, it was on number 7........... my favorite. ehyah. no really tho, i had fun, i always do, i love that place. i'm just so happy when i'm there. (oh, for those of you wondering what is so bad about number 7, it's an express lane, i don't have the second belt to send the groceries down on, so i can't have a bagger help me, and i'm constantly busy, everybody always heads for the express lane.) but anyway, guess what i got!!!!! Josh, my supervisor who called, gave me a world class performance paper..... gold..... thing...... certificate..... thing...... hahaha, no idea what significance it has, but makes me happy anyway! oh but then, after he called me yesterday, i got a call from another guy who works there, asking me to please please take his shift for tomorrow. the crazy thing is, the shift starts at 11, and i don't usually get done with the barn work until then, but i was his last hope. so instead of leaving here at like 7:15 like usual, i'll leave at 6:15, and push myself faster, so i can rush home (father driving cuz i can't myself, grr) and shower so i don't smell of crap, and go to work. the exciting thing is, it's a service clerk shift!!!! i'm never a service clerk, always a cashier, it's gonna be fun! i just hope it's not pouring again.... won't be fun doing carriages in the rain. Matt was doing them today, and he got soaked to the knees, shirt absolutely drenched, shoes squeaking, it was aweful. but anyway. all those stupid applications are done and in......... i feel better...... but also not. cuz now i'm scared....... have to prepare for auditions. anyway. i been going to bed earlier, like a good girl, even earlier than 10:15, and it feels wonderful! only thing tho, most of the time between 9 and 11 is the best time to talk with people, online and phone. yahrrr! but i must stop now, watching Superman Returns, LOVE that movie!!!!!