mind be not working.......

well, was debating whether or not to update again today, but obviously i decided to. i’ve been having these weird mood swings today…… you know, sometimes i really hate being a girl. rawr. ha! but don’t know exactly what i’d rather be………. i mean, sure i love horses, but wouldn’t really wanna be one, of course everyone’s wanted to be a cat at some point in their lives, and then there’s always a squirrel, but wait! not just any squirrel, but a flying squirrel! yeah! i’ve always wanted to fly…… do it in my dreams allll the time, therefore, a bird of some kind……….. but anyway. can’t be anything else, sad. ah well. you know, maybe i just need the sun, it needs to come back, too gloomy out there, but i absolutely refuse to listen to my gloomy playlist or my rainy list, instead am listening to My playlist. in other words, they’re all songs that are kinda about me, sorta. haha! right now Keith Urban is playing with Where the Black Top Ends, love it! i’m gonna kick off my shoes and run in bare feet, where the grass and the dirt and the gravel all meet, goin back to the world, gonna visit old friends, and feed my soul, where the blacktop ends. so come on, give some fresh air give me that farm............ yeah! yay for barefeet! hoohooooo! and now for a punk song…….. anyway, for some reason i’m not really functioning right now, not really sure why, maybe i just need a sugar rush…. or something….. i need people…… haha! no matter how shy i am out there, there’s this part of me that needs to be with other people. specially people i know at least a little. i miss work, didn’t have work yesterday, and don’t today either, haveta wait til tomorrow. and grr! work is making it so i can’t go to youth group leadership core tomorrow, and i can’t go to youth group sat. either! meh. that means i won’t have gone to a single thing this month. you know, i’m writing in weird spurts here, and i’m not sure how much of it is making sense….. i hope i’m not coming off as like mad or grouchy or anything, i’m really not, i’m just kinda musing absentmindedly on random stuff. guess what i did this morning? i sent a letter! i never write letters anymore, email has taken over my life, but i miss letters. cept i was a lazy bum, typed it, *shh!* but i did add a personal touch to it…. heeheee! oh gosh, love Queen so much! i’m going slightly mad, i’m going slightly mad, it finally happened, it finally happened, i’m slightly maaaad......... oh yeah, well, we all knew there was something wrong with me..... haha! ok this is sad, usually i have a million trains of thought going at once, but right now i can’t latch onto anything to talk about, so wrong! ok, me gonna have some sugar, and maybe call someone..... just so you know, as usual now, me be’s typing this in a document and it’s about 2 in the afternoon now, i won’t get on the internet til 4, and anyway, the clock on my site is messed up somehow, it’s half an hour early, so whatever time it says i posted this, it was actually half an hour later. ok, me am going now. and will prolly not update tomorrow, unless i can get my internet time moved earlier.