hmmmm

so..... yesterday....... i spoke a little too soon about the stalker, for i saw him again yesterday, first time in a long time...... and it startled me so bad, and i was shaking he makes me that scared. i told Sean who was bagging a couple lanes over about him, and asked if he could take over my register if he came. i was hoping Jay had scared him enough that he wouldn't, but just in case.... he def looked at me a lot as he walked thru the store getting what he needed, but then, he went down to register 8, and i was on 3! YESSSSSSSS! thing is tho, he watched me the whole time he was in line there, creepy. and even tho he was closer to the door down that way, he walked back towards me so he could go past me, ew ew! at least he didn't go thru my line, and i'm soooo thankful to Jay now. yeah, so that was that. other thing i wanted to say, i am frustrated right now. my last seizure was last Tuesday, and i was good all week after that, and was getting so excited, when darn it all, i had one on Monday....... and then another one yesterday........ what is this????? why doesn't anything work? grrr. meh. really not cool. anyway...... watched a good movie today...... haaa, love it! good chick flick........ and just bought some music, i have too many somgs right now that relate to what i'm thinking and feeling right now, can't choose one..... want to put up some lyrics tho, so i need to choose one.
i'm awake in the afternoon/ i fell asleep in the living room/ and it's one of those moments/ when everything is so clear
before the truth goes back into hiding/ i want to decide 'cause it's worth deciding/ to work on finding something more than this fear
it takes so much out of me to pretend/ tell me now, tell me how to make amends
maybe, i need to see the daylight/ to leave behind this half-life/ don't you see i'm breaking down
lately, something here don't feel right/ this is just a half-life/ is there really no escape?/ no escape from time/ of any kind
i keep trying to understand/ this thing and that thing, my fellow man/ i guess i'll let you know/ when i figure it out
but i don't mind a few mysteries/ they can stay that way it's fine by me/ and you are another mystery i am missing