life

life is complicated........ and only gets more so the older you get. i was talking with my best friend earlier today, remembering how things used to be, the kinds of decisions we had to make then, compared to now, and thinking about how when we finish this school year, that's it, high school is over...... next is college, and at that point, we're on our own really, make our own decisions, kinda be our own bosses. it's crazy. things just keep getting crazier and weirder....... why is my life so crazy??? i still don't know if it's a good thing or bad thing that i can push things away so easily and not think about them, cuz i'd go crazy if i let myself think about some of this stuff. anyway, can't think about that all now. too much going on. so in all the rush of last week, and coming home and being immediately thrust back into the crazy schedule of work, school, and orchestra, i totally forgot about the fact that my sisters birthday is tomorrow.......... and that i have an audition at Uconn tomorrow........ now all of a sudden, i need to practice again! OH! and, i have a violin lesson tonite! this month is just a crazy month, my lessons are all at really random times. well darn it, now i have to go practice. i wanted to watch a movie with my sis, but that's gonna have to wait til later.